So this is getting close to the rough part of my year. First of all Aug. 1st is my brothers birthday. He also passed away Sept. 15th 2005. I love to rejoice for him on his birthday, wishing him the greatest in heaven. Yet soon after comes the mourning. I know I shouldn't mourn his loss but I can't help to feel jealous that he is in heaven without me. My brother and I may not have always gotten along but he was always there when I needed him. I remember as a small kid one of my earrings came out and grew shut. I wanted them back so bad so he sat with me and slowly worked them back into my ears. He was always sure to let boys know not to mess with me either. I'll never understand why God took him so soon from me but I have to have faith it was for a good reason.
This year is especially hard for me as I am also going through a divorce. I lay awake alot of a night praying that my brother could help guide me with his nonjudgmental words. He was always so great about not pointing fingers fir things that happen in the past. I just miss getting to show him my kids or like the new horse I got. He loved animals and family.
I love and miss you with every piece of my heart and soul bub.