Man I think my head may explode if I do not slow down. I am in a time of my life right now where everything is in a whirl wind. I need to stop and take a breath and count my blessings so that I am not to overwhelmed and stressed out with the bumps that I am facing.
I am very thankful that I was able to be a part of the TOS Review Crew this year. Not old does it help me by giving me a community of women (and one man) that have been there and done that. I am getting to know some of these woman and it is nice to know that there is someone out there with advice or even a prayer when I need it. Not only has it given me this wonderful community but also given me the chance to try out many different type of homeschool curriculum that I wouldn't otherwise be able to afford. It has brought some great opportunity into my kids lives for easier learning. Sure there are things that didn't mix well with my kids but at least now we know that it doesn't and I did not have to waste my little income on it. I also get a chance to spread the word out about the things I did love. I enjoy being able to help out new homeschoolers with some knowledge that I have gained already in my time on the Crew. I was once a new homeschooler and was scared on what to try and how to use it. I was so overwhelmed with all that was out there. It is nice to give back for sure!
I am also very thankful that I have three beautiful and healthy kids. Sure they each have their own little quirks that make me want to pull my hair out, but it could always be worse. The days they are fighting till no end and I want to run away I stop and think about how horrible it would feel if I didn't have them. There is a little 1 year old battling a brain tumor in my hometown right now. I would be so lost if that was my child and I need to stop and see that more often. We all have hard days, even as kids.
I have a home, though it may not be fancy it is keeping me warm and dry. I have a car that runs and gets us where we need to go. I need to stop wanting what I can't have. Wanting it only makes me feel sad for myself and I should be happy with what I do have. If God wanted me to have more then he would give it to me. I am following what he has put on my plate to be a full time mom whom homeschools her children and goes to college. He would put a job in my way if it was meant for me to do more. I have applied for many jobs and tried to get one so it isn't like I am just sitting on my bum and saying it's God's way.
I think we all have times where we are overwhelmed with life its self and we need to stop and take that deep breath and look at what is really going on behind all that hardship.